Zach's

XVI
May 19 - 30, 2004
At 8:00 am on Wednesday May 19, 2004, veterans from all wars and their supporters will leave from the T&A Truck Stop at the junction of I-10 & I-15 in Ontario, CA, on their annual pilgrimage across the heartland of America. Most will be riding motorcycles. Our mission is to create a groundswell of support for American PRISONERS OF WAR and MISSING IN ACTION from all wars, and to help those injured by war to heal. 

This 10 day, cross-country journey will include ceremonies with veterans and civic organizations, visits to war memorials, visits with VA hospital patients, and other stops to make sure
our POW-MIA's are remembered.

In Washington, DC, on Memorial Day Sunday,
our group will unite with other riders from all over the country to form
Rolling Thunder XVII, a Welcome Home and We Have Not Forgotten Parade
from the Pentagon to the Vietnam Veteran's Memorial -THE WALL. 
Last year over 500,000 bikes participated.
We will not go away until everyone is home! 
COME SHOW YOUR SUPPORT.



Wednesday, May 19, 2004 7:43 PM
NEEDLES, CALIF. –  Tangerine Kawasakis, powder blue BMWs, huckleberry Harleys lined the street directly below the Red Dog Saloon. A woman, as tall and dark as a double-espresso, strutted 
toward a canopy in City Park. Her hair, black as coal, was woven into extensions that reached the waistband of her leather pants. She wore a black shirt, flecked with the colors from the rainbow. Her 
midriff, barely showing, was taut.  She waited graciously as volunteers from the local American Legion 
dug through aluminum tubs filled with ice, and handed over bottled water.
"Thank you," she said.

The volunteers didn't have time to look up. They just went on down the line, passing out the cool refreshment to the next sweaty soul. Shortly after 1 p.m. on Wednesday, members of the U. S. Military – Army, the Navy, the Marines, the Air Force, Coast Guard and Reserves – rolled into town. 
They came two-by-two, one-by-one, and dozens-at-a-time, adorned in black vests, black berets, and black boots. 

"We are a bunch of old soldiers on one more mission," said Mark Rittermeyer, coordinator for the Ride for the Wall gang. What mission? To ride for those who can't ride for themselves. "The recruit in camp. The soldier, who, God forbid, might be at this very moment under fire in Baghdad. Those missing-in-action. Those killed-in-action," Rittermeyer said. 

Shortly after daybreak, over 300 participants set out from a truck stop just outside of Los Angeles. They came from Lawton, Oklahoma and Seattle, Washington, from the mountains of Colorado and the Gulf Shores of Florida. 

Some served in Vietnam. Some in Iraq.  Some didn't serve at all, but came to show their respects for the ones who had. 

Dixie, a sturdy woman with beefy arms, rides her motorcycle alone. She's made the trip seven times. Her Crayola-red hair is swept over one shoulder. Her sculpted face is like tanned leather. Her smile 
quick as a firefly's light.  "Something hit me in right smack dab in the forehead," Dixie said, as she parked her bike. Lifting her shirt, she reveals to a group of strangers a puffy red abrasion on her belly. "It was a bumblebee. A big sucker. It fell through two layers of leathers, my jacket and my vest, and under my sweatshirt. Then it bit me." Dixie said, as she continued to rub the lesion. She now sports a patch that reads "Bite me." Who knew bumblebees could be a road hazard?

Stop at Flying J. Fill the tank. Fork over $125. "Two o'nine a gallon. That's not bad," a consumer from Los Angeles said.  Not bad? Wasn't gas only 89 cents a gallon a couple of summers ago? 
 

PFC JOEL Brattain
But that was back before Hubert and Lillian Champion of Pine Mountain, Georgia, lost their daughter, Marjorie, in the Pentagon bombing and Elaine lost her son, Joel Brattain to the war in Iraq. 
Back before Muslim extremists sawed off the head of Daniel Pearl and Nicholas Berg, solely because they were American civilians. And long before a handful of American misfits posing as soldiers betrayed all mankind by torturing Iraqi POWs at Abu Ghraib.  Seems like everything, including the price of gasoline, is volatile these days.
 
 

Richard HalpinPerhaps, that's why Kate Halpin couldn't ebb her tears. Kate was only 12 when Richard Halpin, her 26-year brother was killed in Vietnam in 1972. "He was going to go to Georgetown and become an attorney," she said. Instead Richard's plane was shot down as he flew one last mission.  A mission he volunteered to fly. Just because, well, that's the sort of soldier he was. 

Seeing the bikers with their POW & MIA flags and red-white-and-blue doo rags and their "In Memory of" patches pay tribute to the warriors like her brother always makes Kate weep.
"Every year they do this. Every year they remember."

Kate doesn't need a parade to remember. There isn't a day that goes by that she can forget the brother she lost to war. "I want to tell the families of today's causalities to be prepared 
for a lifetime of grief," Kate said. "It doesn't matter how many years pass, 20, 30, 40. It never stops hurting." 

Memorial Day is nearly here. For the next 10 days, hundreds of old soldiers are making the trek from Los Angeles to Needles to Kansas to West Virginia, to D.C. to let the families of dead and missing 
soldiers know their sacrifices are not forgotten.

"And they never will be," the Ride for the Wall gang promised. 
 


Thursday, May 20, 2004 11:43 PM
WINDOW ROCK, N.M. – Don't lean to the left. Don't lean to the right. Sit straight back. Don't wiggle your butt from one cheek to the other. Hop on. Oh, yeah, one more thing. 
"It's a real honor to have you ride with me," said Jackie D. McKinney, New Mexico state coordinator for Run for the Wall. "The honor's all mine," I said, returning McKinney's embrace. 
A line of veteran riders snickered as I threw my right leg over McKinney's limited-edition, Screaming Eagle, Harley. "Y'all praying for him or for me?" I asked.

Cutting their eyes at one another, they broke into uniform laughter. "Don't worry," McKinney said. "I start each day with the same prayer. That we stay upright and dry." The guys were still laughing moments later when McKinney revved up the engine and pulled out of the parking lot of the Petrified Forest National Park and onto Interstate 40. And without much more hoopla, Run for the Wall's hundreds of bikers were on the way to Window Rock, capital to the Navajo Nation. McKinney asked me to join him in the lead. 

Somewhere on another Harley behind me, Terry McGregor was riding with a veteran from Texas. A tall drink of water named Harvey Gaubatz. "All I did in "Nam was drive a truck," Harvey Gaubatz said. "Thank you for your service," Terry said. "Welcome Home." McKinney didn't serve in Vietnam. "But I have a heart for all those who did," he said as he picked up his speed from 40 to 45 mph. Yelling back over his shoulder at me, McKinney added, "Be sure to look behind us when we reach the top of this hill." Exactly how does one turn to look behind them without shifting weight from one butt cheek to 
another? "Too bad I'm not an owl," I said. McKinney is a wiry guy, with the build of a long-distance runner. His gray-hair was pulled back into a ponytail. A leather band, decorated with a tiny beaded 
flag, held the ponytail in place. 

Sitting up straight as an arrow, I tipped my head down, away from the strong winds, fearing my brain bucket might blow off any minute. A scarf, red, white and blue, kept the desert dust out of my mouth. 
New Mexico is in drought. As we passed mound after mound of sagebrush, I prayed God would send rains to the parched land. Billboards advertising Navajo jewelry and Indian rugs littered the 
expansive scenery. 50. 55. 60. 65.  I tried not to think what it must feel like to crash on a cycle at 
such speeds. I didn't lean. I didn't jerk. I just sat back and watched the rearview mirrors of the line of Christmas lights stretching out for miles and miles behind me. 

Somewhere halfway between the Petrified Forest and Window Rock, I realized that I had not been in a vehicle in parade formation since August, 1966. The day we buried Daddy. Could he see me now? When we lived in Hawaii, Daddy discovered a moped, discarded in a ditch. He brought it home and, despite Mama's protests, got it in running condition. On days off, he would take sister Linda and me on rides through the pineapple fields. Whadya think of this bike, Daddy? Pretty cool, heh?

"We ride for those who can't." That's the Run for the Wall's mantra. "For you, Daddy," I said, uttering a prayer. And you, too, Mama. And widows like Estella Shockley who had called earlier that day to wish Terry McGregor and me Godspeed on our journey. "If only I was 10 years younger, I'd be right there with you," Shockley said. "I wish you were," I said. How long would the line of lights be if every cycle had a widow from the Vietnam war onboard? 

What if that line included all the Vietnamese widows as well? How many states would such a line stretch across? We were escorted by state troopers and county sheriff patrols. Motorists pulled onto the shoulder of the road. Truckers slowed down or sped up to clear lanes for us. 

Why didn't life slow down for our mothers? Why weren't they escorted through the hard times with respect and consideration? A sign was our first welcome to Window Rock: "The Navajo Nation honors all warriors, past and present." 

Native Americans have the highest per capita volunteer rate for military service. I once asked a member of the Confederated Tribes of the Umatilla Indian Reservation why that was. "Native Americans value freedom," he said. "This was our country first." 

They also value their elders. And it was my ancestors I thought about as McKinney tuned the radio 
to the prayers of the Navajos. Prayers for safe travels for the Run for the Wall bikers. And prayers for our soldiers, past and present, but particularly for those in Iraq. Tears streamed down my cheeks as 
the prayers floated across the wind. 

"Window Rock is a very spiritual place," the veterans had said. "What till you see the people." They turned out in clusters. Like magpies on a fence. A family of five sitting on the hood of 
their Chevy, waving. A lone man, sitting in a pickup at the end of a dirt road, saluting. A school bus of elementary children, noses pressed to window panes, smiles bright as lightening against dark 
skin. McKinney was crying now too. 

I could tell because of the way he kept slapping the left-side of his helmet with his open palm, as if to say, "Stop it! Get a hold of yourself!" I wanted to tell him to just never mind. Crying is a good 
thing. But then, again, he did need to see the road ahead of us. I didn't bother wiping away any tears. I just let the wind dry them. But my cheeks stayed damp, because as quick as they dried, they came 
again. 

"It's 23 miles up this road," McKinney said.  The Navajos might not have much in way of material blessings, but Creator has fashioned a landscape of hand painted rocks. They point all eyes heavenward. 10. 15. 20. As we got closer, the gaps between the clusters grew smaller. Both sides of the roadway were lined with people, waving flags, Vietnamese, American. Or just waving both hands. A group of junior high kids gathered on one corner. Yelling, cheering. Elementary school kids sat on a fence and waved frantically, eager for eye-contact, a nod, some acknowledgement of their enthusiasm. 

"Take the scarf off and yell out `Thanks,'" McKinney instructed. I didn't have all the parade protocol down, but I was sure of one thing – this was a higher honor than being Homecoming Queen at the University of Georgia. The Navajos aren't people of material means, and there wasn't any royalty in the Run for the Wall gang that I'm aware of, but I can't imagine a more meaningful tribute than the one I witnessed at Window Rock. It takes a great amount of grace for wounded people to forgive the past while remembering the sacrifices of all warriors, past and present. 

The Navajo people have created a nation of such grace. And our nation is the better for it.
 
 


Karen's Biker Look

Monday, May 24, 2004 6:54 AM
LIMON, CO. - It's Sunday, Day 5 of the trip, but I only know that because someone else told me. 
What happened to Day 3 & Day 4? 

We left Gallup, N.M. on Friday after very little sleep. Brother Terry McGregor and I had hooked up the computer in a laundry facility at a KOA stop in Gallup and were there up 1:30 a.m, working to send out stories and photos. A laundry room! We were both so rummy and, sadly enough, we hadn't had a darn thing to drink! 
Chip's Harley in Albuquerque welcomed us for a lunch of burgers. The state police turned out in full force to escort us through downtown. We staged for the ride just outside of town. 

While waiting on the bikes to get into formation, I struck up a conversation with Trooper Nadine Hamby, the only female motor officer in the state. Hamby is 37, and is so beautiful, both men and women were turning their heads to get a glimpse of her. Her long brown locks were pulled back in a purple scrunchie. Her full lips were painted berry red. Her smile white as a summer cloud. Standing next to her BMW motorcycle, Hamby pulled out a tube of sunscreen and rubbed it over her already dark forearms and face. She's the mother of two girls, 5 and 8.  I asked her what they think of their mom on a motorcycle. "They are too young to understand the significance of it all," Hamby said. I asked what her mother thought of it. "She doesn't like it one bit," Hamby said. "She didn't mind when I rode recreationally. But she said it's different having me ride 8 hours a day on the job."  Hamby said handling the BMW is a lot different than maneuvering the Kawasakis. "They are a lot heavier," she said.  That bike of hers looked light as a feather, later as she flew off a ramp and sped past us, ponytail whipping. 
 

The ramps and bridges in Albuquerque are unlike any I've ever seen. They are painted desert colors, and artwork is etched into the cement, bright blue tile decorates the overpasses. It's like a drive-thru Indian Art Museum. 

We left the city under police escort and began a grueling drive to Angel Fire, N.M., home of the nation's first Vietnam Veteran memorial (Webpage), built by Dr. Victor Westpahll, in honor of his son, Lt. David Westphall who was KIA on May 22, 1968. We arrived at the sacred circle at 5 p.m., on the eve of the anniversary of David's death. 

The first thing you notice isn't the memorial, but the place. High on a ridge overlooking an expansive valley, Angel Fire is located within the Carson National Forest. The road into Angel Fire is snaked together with 20 mph S-curves. Up and down and all around. It's dizzin', but I'm not sure if that's because it's like a trip through an enchanted forest or because of the twist and turns. Trees stretch skyward, like a toddler rising after a long nap. Limbs go every which way. Just when you think you can't possibly climb any higher, there's a bend in the road and up you go again. Like an endless roller coaster. The memorial is on the other side of the village of Angel Fire. The chapel is a white structure that seems to have been molded on a pottery wheel. It's all curves, no edges. It's perched upon the edge of a mountain, an eagle's nest, at 8,500 feet above sea level. An emerald rug covers the valley below it. And the magnificent Sangre De Cristo Mountains provide protection on all sides. Sangre De Cristo, the blood of Jesus. The sacrifice of the innocent. 

My first stop at the memorial was the museum, where I watched a video of footage from Vietnam. Boys talking about their buddies. Boys talking bravado. Boys talking about their fears.  Boys talking about their girls. Boys talking about their mamas. Boys talking about their medals and how little they mean in light of all that was lost to earn them. Lonesome, homesick, war weary boys. Boys young enough to be my boy. And these words about Lt. Gary Scott, one mother's dead boy: "He could not understand the whys of this conflict which killed him." 

As I listened, I thought of the hundreds of boys who've already died in Iraq. And the thousands of homesick, lonesome boys, rising each day in Najaf or Fallujah or points between with the prayer that Christ's blood will give them the protection they need for one more day in combat. 

I left the museum with Terry McGregor. We walked over to the chapel where we lit candles, his blue, mine red, in honor of Capt. Donald McGregor and Staff. Sgt. David Spears. As we knelt at the cross, we held hands and said a prayer for our mothers, for all war widows, and for all the sons and daughters, those past and present. 

Dr. Westphall died last year. Two evergreen trees were planted in Dr Westphall and his wife's honor. 
"Our hearts are broken for losing Dr. Westphall," said Jack McKinney, New Mexico state director for Run for the Wall. J. R. Franklin, assistant national coordinator for Run for the Wall, paid tribute to his friend, Dr. Westphall. "Any help from veterans come from within the veterans community," Franklin said. "We all carry a lot of baggage. We've looked into the Tiger's mouth and seen death, destruction, and our friends maimed. "When I met Dr. Westphall, he was up here, building this memorial by himself. He spoke to me with compassion. He spoke to me about healing. He gave me a safe place to come to. This is a place of healing. We all should be eternally grateful for Dr. Westphall for helping us. Let's remember to help those who are coming back from oversees now. It's our job to help them face the demons inside their heads," Franklin said. 

Afterward, Terry and I lit incense that Terry had brought back from Vietnam and placed the incense, along with the article I had written for the New York Times (The Lost Father), in front of a marble headstone. One more stop along our journey of healing, as sons and daughters. 

I then hitchhiked a ride with a biker from Orange County, California. I wanted to experience the enchanted forest, up close and personal. Jim's a Vietnam Veteran. He has 3 kids. All doing well. He's a proud papa. And he's a skillful driver - he drives truck for a living. Some of the turns were so sharp I could've stretched out my arms and touched the asphalt. But Jim handled his bike with finesse. I didn't bother watching the road. I was too busy taking in the wildflowers, the cattails in standing water, the stream trickling by, the evergreens, limbs drawn in arches above our heads. The ride to Cimarron,N.M. was every bit as wonderful as the trip into Window Rock, but in a magical sort of way. 
Dinner was at the Immaculate Conception Parish Hall. It's just a trailer house down from the Idle Hour Café, which had sheets hanging from its window. Apparently the Idle Hour Café had one too many idle hours. Spaghetti. Garlic bread. Iced tea. Mixed salad. Choice of homemade dessert. I took the chocolate cake. A stress reliever. After dinner, I had set up interviews with David and Ruth McDonald, who have twin boys serving in Iraq. And Terry and Jamie Maines who have a daughter serving in Iraq. 
Both couples are from California. The McDonalds are from Manhattan Beach, CA. The Maines are from Yucaipa, CA.

David is a Vietnam veteran. He and wife Ruth are on opposing sides of this war. David said he's no friend of President Bush, but he believes that "all the people who really want to do us harm are in the neighborhood" of Iraq. Ruth thinks our nation's leaders have led us into a "hornet's nest." Ruth and David cannot get away from war worries. They seek constant updates on body counts. David said his mama once told him that the whole time he was in Vietnam she worried. As a young man, he didn't really understand that, but now with two boys in a combat zone, he's come to appreciate the stress he put his mama through. Terry Maines is not a veteran, but he is a proud papa to 2nd Lt. T.J. Berry. Terry has the stereotype good looks of a California surfer. He's tall, blonde, bronzed; with eyes the color of glacier waters. His wife, Jamie, is a button of a woman. Little enough to still be in junior high. Golden freckles are scattered sparsely across her nose and shiny braces light up her smile. She doesn't look old enough to have a daughter in war. They never dreamed they'd be making the ride in honor of their own daughter. The trip to Angel Fire was disturbing for them as parents. The thought of having to build a memorial to one's own child. "No parent wants to see their child's name on the Wall," Jamie said. Yeah, I thought. And no child wants to see their parent's name there either. 

Constant nightmares, one after the other, caused for a fitful sleep. Brother Terry had to wake me from several screaming fits. He was sleeping on a mattress on the floor in the motor home. (Sissy boy) I was roughing it, sleeping nearby, in a recliner. Pablo Gallegos and wife Marie had the motor home's only bed. Pablo is the medic who identified my father's body in 1966. And he's the reason I'm making the trip with Run for the Wall. He's never been to D.C. I'm worried about how he'll react. I'm probably worried about a lot of things I haven't begun to process. One of the nightmares involved Pablo. Terry heard me screaming, "Pablo! Pablo!" 

After he woke me, my heart was pounding. If Pablo or Marie heard me screaming, they never said. The next morning, Terry asked, "Do you remember what you were dreaming about when you called out Pablo's name?" "Yes," I said. But I didn't say anything more, and Terry didn't ask. Some fears are best left unsaid, Jamie Maines has told me the night before. 
I reckon so.

Day Four is a blur. We left Cimarron, headed to Colorado Springs and Limon. I was disconcerted because I knew Terry would be taking off, flying out of Colorado on Sunday, headed home. He'll catch up with us in D.C. later in the week. Who would I buddy around with? Who would wake me from the nightmares? 

To make matters really bad, shortly after lunch in Colorado Springs, we came upon a horrific wreck. We were on the two-lane Highway 24, an unescorted portion of the trip. Dozens of day drivers joined the pack. Helmets are not required in Colorado. The trouble with day riders is that they don't know the rules that are gone over and over again, each morning before that day's journey. 


We were at the tail end of the pack, in the support vehicle, when we came upon the wreck. A motorcycle. A pickup. Two bodies down, the Russells. One male. One female. One helmeted. One not. 
The pickup had seen a break in the long line of cyclists and decided to gun it through the intersection. The cyclist, in an effort to miss the truck, swerved, fishtailed and wiped out. The cycle was in the ditch. The bodies sprawled across the left lane of Highway 24. Ambulances were enroute. A life flight. 
Pablo, a trained medic, got out the help. Terry took pictures. I sat in the motor home, praying, along with Marie. The helicopter landed in the intersection, directly in front of us. The male cyclist was taken out by ambulance. The female was carried out by helicopter. Terry heard the EMTs calling for the woman to "Hold on. Hold on." 

Later, at the KOA camp in Limon, I came upon an orange bike with a Washington license plate. "Where you from?" I asked the driver. "Pullman," he said. Home to Washington State Cougars. My husband earned his Masters from Wazu, I said. Mark Eastman was making his first trip to D.C., along with his friend, Jack Corolla from Burbank, Wash. Both very near my home in Hermiston, Oregon. With his gray mustache and tanned leather face, Mark has that cowboy-on-the-range look. He came back to the motor home with me and looked at Terry's pictures. 

"I've never met a daughter of a KIA,' he said.

I gave him my card.

"Would you ride leg with me sometime?" he asked.

"Sure," I said.

First thing this morning, I ran into Eastman.

"You going to ride with me today?" he asked.

"Not this morning," I answered. "I have some writing to do." "But you will ride?" "Promise," I answered. 

Today, I'm riding with Kate Halpin, the gal whose brother was KIA in Vietnam. Halpin is a friend of Terry's His parting gift to me was his buddy, Kate. She asked me to stay the night in a hotel room (ahhh, sleep, a shower, pillows!) and to ride with her. Twenty miles down the freeway, on our way to Kansas, motorcycles are pulled over. Pablo's motor home is stopped in the left lane. A biker is down. I see Eastman's orange bike. He's stretched out in the road, in front of Pablo's motor home. Pablo is leaning over him, talking. Kate weeps and prays out loud. 

Mark is taken away by ambulance.

"He's okay," Pablo tells me later. "A few broken ribs, maybe a wrist, maybe a leg." "Did you know he asked me to ride with him today," I said. "He wasn't supposed to be riding," Chaplain Dan Dyer tells me. "We tried to get him to put his bike on the trailer." Mark is suffering panic attacks. 
"Bad case of PTSD," Sizzmo, a long term volunteer tells me later.

Before the ambulance took him away, Mark asked them to hold off. He hadn't yet gotten his beads from Sizzmo. Beads are for those who served in Vietnam or those like Terry and me and Kate, the families of those KIA or MIA. Sizzmo wept when she told me what Mark Eastman had done. "He had to have his beads," she said. The road of healing can be a dangerous place. It's not for the faint of heart. Sangre de Cristo 

Tuesday, May 25, 2004 8:55 AM
WENTZVILLE, MO.- Road names. Every rider has one. 
Some are obvious: The Navigator. Stump. Bullet Head. Cruiser. Straightarrow. Wildman.
Most have a story behind them: Sharp is a double-amputee, the result of jumping rail cars and missing one too many of them. He sharpens knives for a living. Rich Harrison is also known as K-Rail. It's a named he earned after tumbling headlong into a concrete barrier in St. Louis, Mo., a couple of years ago. Something malfunctioned on his bike. A ball bearing or some other sort of gizmo. 
"A $35 part ended up costing over $35,000 in medical bills," he said. K-Rail's crash gives a whole new meaning to Run for the Wall, doesn't it? 
We left Salinas, Kansas, early Monday and finished up the day in Wentzville, Missouri. 
I started the morning in the truck with Kate Halpin. It looked like rain might catch up with the bikers, so Kate and I were glad to be in a cage. Cage is more road lingo. It refers to conventional transportation. The kind that keeps you dry and comfortable, like a Lexus or Grand Am. 
Trailing behind the pack isn't always a bad thing. Kate popped in the Miss Saigon CD so we were adequately entertained on that long stretch between Deep Creek and the Missouri River. 
As we pulled into Topeka, we spotted a downed motorist. Deacon from Missouri. He was driving a contraption that looked like an inbred-cross of a Volkswagen, speedster and a motorcycle. Spotting our POW/MIA flags flapping from the truck's window, Deacon waved his arms frantically. A sure sign of trouble. 
It took some doing but Kate turned the truck around and we headed back to offer help. Deacon's engine was blown.
"It was a brand new engine, only had 13 hours on it," he said, obviously frustrated. "Can you reach the pack and send back help?"
"No problem," Kate answered.
We found them under a canopy at a rest area somewhere between Topeka and Kansas City. The barbecue was all gone, but they did have a few ham-n-cheese and turkey sandwiches left. Kate and I had missed breakfast. There was a good chance we were going to miss lunch as well. I grabbed a couple of sandwiches. Some bottled water. We tossed the buns away and rolled the turkey into the cheese and ate on the run. Kate was hitching a ride with K-Rail. I was driving the truck. 
Getting through Kansas City is only easy for those who know it. 
I didn't. 
I was fine as long as I could see the clothesline of cyclists in front of me. I lost them after the first two exits. Vehicles merged between the pack. Not to exit, but so they could be part of the pack. Flash the lights. Motion for them to move over. Curse. Curse again. 
A blue truck approaches from the rear. Flags flapping. Chaplain Dan's. Follow him. 
On the other side of Kansas City, Kate and I switched. 
K-Rail is the Kansas State Coordinator. 
"A very safe driver," Kate reassured me.
She failed to mention he drives with the right hand and smokes with his left. Or that he's a big tease. K-Rail's a lean fellow. Tanned, with a sly grin. He wears his graying blond locks in a ponytail. He's 60. 
He rides a black Harley with a white wolf painted on the tank. 
Roads aren't a high priority with Kansas taxpayers. Some of the potholes were as big as moon craters. I'm pretty sure K-Rail hit every single one of 'em. My 
"What do you call that? A hole in one?" I asked, after flying three inches off the seat.
He patted my leg, as if that would somehow reassure me. 
We were riding about a third of the way back, in the thick of the pack. I finally understood what Staightarrow meant by that "rubberband effect" that comes when hundreds of cyclists are riding two-by-two down an Interstate. 
An ambulance flew past us in the opposite direction. 
"Never like to see that," K-Rail said.
Later we learned a sleeping bag flew off a motorcycle behind us. A biker swerved, dumped his bike and rolled down a 12-foot embankment. Thank God for soft ground. He sustained a broken ankle and broken nose. 
"Continue on the mission,' he said.
 The roads in Missouri are better. Not as many craters. Police provided escort. Honeysuckle grows wild along the banks. On a motorcycle the perfume is heady. Wind gusts cause the pack to sway to the left. Semis on the right cause us to sway to the left. 
So we rock side-to-side, like infants in a cradle as we motor along. I could feel every nerve in my forearms. 
Chills ran down my spine as we passed overpass after overpass, lined with locals waving their POWs or American flags. They sat in the bed of their Dodge pickups, or on lawn chairs, with their feet propped up on coolers, waving and smiling. White-haired grandmas stood by their Altimas, tears in their eyes, perhaps remembering a high school sweetheart who didn't make it back from war.
OHMYGOSH! The entire town of Wentzville turned out to welcome us. They flowed into parking lots at hamburger joints, grocery stores, mini-marts. They sat on their lawns and stood on Main Street. They held their babies high and hugged their mamas. They cheered and cried and carried on like patriotic Americans are prone to do. 
Boys Scouts by the dozens, tall ones, short ones, stood at attention. Old veterans, too. 
Firemen and policemen, their badges and boots shined, stood underneath a flag as wide as a football field. 
The police chief welcomed us with these words: "I can remember a time in this country when it was an embarrassment to mention that you were a Vietnam vet. Well, not here in this town. In Wentzville, we've always honored our veterans. And it's our honor to once again honor the Vietnam veterans by welcoming back Run for the Wall. Thank you for all you do."
At the close of the ceremony, hundreds of black balloons were released as TAPS played in the background. 
Veterans, young and old, all around me broke down in tears, remembering those they've promised never to forget. 

Parents who Ride & Remember...

Thanking volunteers from VFW Post 1139, David McDonald and wife Ruth accepted a plate of spaghetti and took a seat among the hundreds gathered at the Immaculate Conception Parish Hall in Cimarron, New Mexico. 
But Ruth didn't feel much like eating. It was Day Three of the Run for the Wall, the annual trek from Los Angeles to D.C. by motorcyclists remembering "those who can't ride for themselves." Veterans and their families come from Sisters, Oregon, Lawton, Oklahoma, and Honolulu, Oahu. With sleeping bags rolled on the backs of big hawgs, and POWs flags flapping, these leather-clad codgers and biker mamas crank up their Harleys, Kawasakis, and BMWs and ride 10 straight days to reach the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall for Memorial Day. 
David is a Vietnam Veteran. The couple is making the trip from their home in Manhattan Beach, California. But it is plainly a hard journey as they honor fallen warriors of wars past, and those serving now. 
Soldiers like their sons. Sgt. Kris Van Beveren, 22, is serving with the First Infantry Division. His twin brother, Lance Corporal Craig Van Beveren, is serving with the First Marine Division in Fallujah 
"Kris is a scout with a mobile unit, so he's in all the hot spots in Iraq," Ruth said. 
Craig's been away so long he missed the birth of his first child, two-month old Mikayla. Neither soldier is expected to return home until next year. 
Ruth fears they may never return. David understands her anxiety. When Kris enlisted, David warned his stepson that military life comes with occupational job hazards. 
A stop on Day Three at the Vietnam Veterans National Memorial in Angel Fire, N.M., drove home that point in a stomach-churning way. The monument, the nation's first for Vietnam Veterans, was built by Dr. Victor Westphall in memory of his son, Lt. David Westphall, who was killed in Vietnam on May 22, 1968. Overlooking the glorious Sangre de Cristo Mountains, the sacred structures underscore Dr. Westphall's philosophy that "war is not the answer to our problems." 
Inside the museum, a video clip quotes a soldier's letter: "Well, Mom, it's finally happened. I've earned a Silver Star, but I'm no hero. I was only helping out my buddies. Heroes are for the late show." 
Listening to first-hand accounts of former combat veterans upsets Ruth. 
"When these guys admit to how lonely and frightened they were in Vietnam, how hot and tired, it brings it all home. I can't help but think of my boys," she said. 
Sun burnt and road weary bikers, Terry and Jamie Maines, of Yucaipa, California, are also occupied with thoughts of their daughter, 2nd Lt. T. J. Berry. Berry, 22, is serving in Najaf. 
Terry's blue eyes swell and his voice cracks when he speaks of his girl. 
"I'm scared for her and I'm proud of her. I tear up a lot." 
The couple pays close attention to the veterans on the trip. 
"When I look at these vets and see all they went through, I think of T.J. and the sorts of problems she might face. I think about it all the time. But there are certain things you fear that you just don't talk about," Jamie said. 
Terry nodded. 
"I'm pretty sure she won't come home the same girl as before. How could she?" 
With all the brouhaha brewing over this current war, they're concerned that their daughter may come home to a nation's lukewarm reception. 
"I think the welcome is fading," Jamie said. "We need to remember that there are still soldiers out there doing their jobs." 
And parents, stateside, fretting. 
"My mom always told me about how much stress she had while I was in Vietnam," David said. "She watched the news to see how many Marines were killed and wondered if I was on that list. Now I'm glued to the news. Every time I walk in the front door, I get that day's body count." 
The couples hoped the trip would give them a break from war worries. Instead, it has made them all the more aware of the sacrifices of this nation's military families. 
All medals and monuments aside, no parent ever wants to see their child become a late show hero in a combat zone. 

Wednesday, May 26, 2004 8:37AM
CAREFREE, IN. - We are headed to Hurricane, Kentucky today. After yesterday, I’d rather not visit any place named Hurricane. We stopped at Jefferson Barracks on the way out of St. Louis on Tuesday. The VA hospital. Patients wheeled out their chairs to welcome us. Frank was recovering from open-heart surgery.
“I can’t hear very well, or see you,” he said, as I leaned over to give him a hug.
Frank must’ve been an artilleryman like my dad.
“My name is Karen,” I said loudly. 
“I have a daughter named Karen,” he replied.
I hugged him again. 
Inside the hospital we marched down a long, windy corridor. 
“This reminds me of after I got shot up in ‘Nam,” one veteran said. “I remember being rolled down a corridor like this at Madigan.” 
Once inside we were encouraged to break up and go visit the wards with the nurses. 
I couldn’t find a nurse in the crowd so I just meandered about. First stop was the bowling alley. 
“Hey, I’m Karen,” I said. The Run for the Wall vest I was wearing, a gift from Pablo Gallegos, was my ID badge. 
“Hey, I’m XL,” one black fellow replied. 
“XL?” I asked. “Like the car? You a fast fellow?”
”Yeah,” he said, laughing. “Like the car.”
“Where you from?” a fellow named Jack asked. 
“Oregon,” I replied.
“Oregon! I’ve always wanted to go to Oregon. I hear it’s beautiful.”
”It is,” I said. “C’mon on up.”
The next stop was the psychiatric ward. I’d tracked down a woman with an official-looking badge on and asked her where I could find patients who couldn’t come to us. 
“You up for a visit to the psyche ward?” she asked, eyeing me curiously.
Was that a leading question? Like, Do you still beat your kids?
I wasn’t sure how to answer. 
“Sure,” I replied. “Probably the best place for me.”
Ted from Texas joined us in the elevator. Ted’s not a veteran. He’s a member of the Christian Motorcycle Association. 
“I’m on a mission,” he said. 
I knew that before he said a word. 
“Are you going to heaven, young lady?” he asked.
“Sure.” 
“How do you know that?” Ted pressed.
Another trick question. 
“Jesus is going to get me in,” I said.
“Good for you!” Ted bellowed. “You know there are a lot of Christians out there who don’t know the answer to that question.”
Lucky guess, I reckon. I hoped Ted wouldn’t ask me any more questions. 
Four men, three black and one white, were sitting in the day room, kicking back, watching a Western flick. 
”I’m here on business,” Ted said. “If you were to die today, do you know where you’re going?”
“I’m not sure,” said Ray, a buff black guy who served in the Gulf War.
“Would you like to be sure?” Tom asked.
“Yes,” Ray answered.
“Then gather round. You other fellows come over here and join us,” Ted said. I hung back as the men placed their hands one on top the other. Ted led them in a prayer. The men repeated verbatim the lines Ted fed them.
Then Ted was out the door quick as a fly trapped in a hot outhouse.
Sitting down in front of Ray, I said, “I’m just here to visit. Y’all tell me where you’re from and where you’ve been, what you’ve seen.”
The oldest of the guys, to my right, did two tours in Vietnam. To Ray’s right was Jesse, a tall, lean fellow with intense eyes. He did a tour in the Gulf. Sitting on the pool table behind him was a young bespectacled fellow. He didn’t look older than 23. He was fragile-looking, like cracked crystal, like he might shatter at any moment. 
“I did two tours in Saudi,” he said.
Jesse’s father was career military. Ray’s too. 
“We’ve been military for generations back,” Ray said. “My father, my uncles, my grandfather, my great-grandfather. All military.”
“My father died in Vietnam,” I said. “I went to Vietnam last year.”
“No shit,” Ray said.
Jesse focused his eyes on me.
“I went with a group of kids whose fathers all died there. It was a wonderful experience. You know, growing up, all my life I heard what a waste my father’s death had been. It wasn’t until I went to Vietnam that I understood that my father’s death wasn’t a waste. The Vietnamese people were terrific. They really appreciate what men like my father did for them.
“I want you to know that you’ve done good work, wherever you’ve served. Helping oppressed people, whether their government is communists, Islamic, or whatever, is the right thing to do. We have a moral obligation as Americans to help those less fortunate than us.”
Jesse’s eyes filled with tears. Ray was blinking fast. The fellow on the pool table looked down at his hands. They were shaking.
“I know what I did was a good thing,” Ray said. “What I can’t understand is how my own government has treated me upon my return.” 
“Yeah,” said the elder veteran. “I served my country and I can’t even get in to get my teeth fixed. I had x-rays done yesterday because my teeth are hurting so bad and they told me they can’t fix them until June 28th.” 
“Yeah,” Ray said, chiming in. “It don’t make any sense. We serve our country and this is the best they can do. When I signed up, they made me all sorts of promises. I lost a lot of the friends in the Gulf. The Army said they’d take care of my family if anything happened to me, but I wonder what would’ve happened to them if I’d died.” 
Rays gray eyes were filled with hot, bitter tears.
“I understand,” I said. “My dad was career military. Mama had never been anything but a military wife. After Daddy died, that was it. She was on her own.”
Jesse eyes were brimming, too. 
“Time for group,” a black woman said. She entered the room with a tall black guy. The group leader. 
“I gotta take off,” I said. “But I want you all to know you’re not forgotten. There are a lot of people out there who appreciate you.”
I gave each man a hug. 
“What you riding?” Ray asked.
”Harleys,” Jesse answered.
“You betcha,” I said, smiling.
As I left, I stopped to hug the hospital employees. 
“That was a good thing for you to do for these men,” the lady said.
“Hey, you are the ones who do all the work. Thank you. I know you’re all overworked and underpaid.” 
“You got that right,” she said, holding up an okay sign with her fingers.
After the hospital visit, Kate Halpin called OnStar and asked for directions to the nearest Starbucks. We’d been on the road a week. We need something besides trucker’s oil. 
We both had two cups of Starbucks’ java before leaving St. Louis.
Turns out we’d need Valium more than caffeine. 
A severe thunderstorm chased us through Southern Illinois and into Indiana. I was driving. Kate was praying. Lightening was crackling all around us. I saw one flash hit a tree beside the roadway. Dark clouds gathered over a silo to my left. 
”Watch the tree tops,” I told Kate. “If they start flying anywhere, let me know.”
“Dear Jesus,” Kate said as thunder rumbled the ground beneath us. 
“Shit,” I said as the wind picked up and rain pelted the windshield so hard I thought it might break.
We pulled over at an exit somewhere in DuBois County, Indiana. Kate ran in and asked the gal behind the counter if there were any tornado warnings out. Inside, she came upon two of our bikers. A man and his wife. He told Kate he was a trucker and that while this was bad weather, it was only a 6 on a scale of 10 in Indiana weather. He and his wife were heading on out through the storm. 
Kate tried to talk him out of pressing on. The severe thunder watch was only in effect for the next half-hour.
”Why don’t you wait this one out?” Kate urged.
“Nah,” he said. “It’s okay. Just go slow.”
Kate hopped back in the truck. We both felt like waiting until the storm passed over, but neither of us felt comfortable with leaving team members out on the road in the storm. 
“I think we have to follow them,” Kate said.
”Shit,” I said. 
I can’t help it. Stupid people make me want to cuss.
We followed the couple for nearly 40 miles. The rain was thick as syrup. I couldn’t see the taillights of the motorcycle. Semis blew them to the right. 
“Dumbshits,” I said.
“It’s drivers like them that give Run for the Wall a bad name,” Kate said.
 “I’m taking the next exit off this freeway,” I said. 
“Okay,” Kate said.
Thankfully, it was exit 192, the one we needed to reach Carefree, Indiana. We missed lunch and dinner.
“I’m so hungry I could eat the right leg of a priest,” Kate said.
I didn’t know where to order that, so instead I bought Kate a tuna salad sandwich. Tim, Danny and Lou kept the beers flowing while some local gal belted out hits like “Redneck Girls” and “Delta Dawn.”
We all went to bed, exhausted, but thankful to be horizontal and dry. 

Tuesday, June 01, 2004 11:15 AM
WASHINGTON, D.C.- Grief is like lightening. You can never be quite sure where it's going to strike, but when it does it illuminates the entire landscape of a person's life. 
I was hit hard while visiting the Kentucky Vietnam Veterans Memorial. There were more than 1,100 Kentuckians killed in Vietnam and thousands more injured. Dedicated in 1988, the memorial is constructed as a gigantic sundial. The shadow of the sundial's gnomon falls over names etched in marble on the anniversary date of that individual's death. The names of those missing in action are etched in front of the gnomon, where the shadow never falls. 
It was those words - where the shadow never falls - that split me like a tree in drought. I sought refuge under the shade of the sweet gum tree, far away from the roar of bikes and chatter of people. A good place to urinate I discovered later as several male bikers took advantage of the cover, unaware that I was there. 
My cell phone rang. It was Tony Cordero, president of Sons and Daughters in Touch. 
"Sounds like the ride is getting to your sinuses," Tony said.
"Not at all," I replied. "You just caught me in the middle of a major meltdown."
Tony understands how unpredictable grief can be and how it can slay even the toughest warriors. He did his best to cheer me. 
"I wish I could be there on the Run," Tony said.
His remarks reminded me once again what an honor it was for me, a daughter of a slain Vietnam veteran, to be embraced by the Run for the Wall family. I was thankful that my life allows for such adventures. Still, embarking on such journeys alone can be daunting. 
A spirit of vulnerability washed over me, soaking me like laundry on a clothesline during a storm. I felt like something had turned me inside out. I waited until all the bikes lined up before heading for the truck that Kate Halpin and I were riding in that day. 
Kate was at the truck, waiting for me with a hug. She didn't say anything. I didn't either. We just embraced, climbed in the truck and headed off.
It rained buckets throughout the rest of the day. 
When we approached Morehead, Kentucky, I began to feel like that fellow I'd met at the psyche ward in St. Louis. The young guy who looked like shattered crystal. 
My father's commanding officer lives in Morehead. It's an out-of-the-way spot. Known mostly to locals, or those seeking an education at Morehead State University. I'd only been to the town once, back in 2001, when I'd driven in from Nashville for the sole purpose of learning the details of my father's death from his commanding officer. It had rained hard that day too. So hard, in fact, that several times I was forced to pull off the side of the road and wait for the violent downpour to ease up some. 
When I finally arrived at the CO's house, he told me, "It rained like this the day your daddy died. That's part of the reason the medvac couldn't get in to evacuate him."
He told me a lot of other things that day, things that at the time I felt strong enough to handle. But not on this day. With lyrics of a James Taylor CD echoing in the background, I began to tell Kate how that visit in 2001 had left me confused and troubled and sad. I didn't realize how confused and troubled and sad until I saw the exit sign to Morehead. 
I cried throughout the rest of the day. Kate knew better than to try and fix it for me. She listened. She patted me. She offered me "Scooby snacks." And she wrapped herself in her brother's flight jacket and fought off the urge to fall apart herself. 
That night, Kate and I joined several veterans for dinner at Applebee's. Although thankful for all the VFWs folks that had provided us with nourishment along the trip, I think we were all looking for some sense of the familiar. A ceramic dinner plate. A glass of iced tea. Laughter. Gossiping around the dinner table. I sat next to Tom from Arkansas. 
"How are you doing?" he asked.
"Rough day," I said.
"How come?" 
"Not sure."
We talked about family and home and kids. I learned he'd lost a son through a horrific tragedy. A bright boy. The kind that makes a father proud. Tom and I discussed the many ways a child grieves the lost parent, and the parent grieves the lost child. 
Troubled people often disguise themselves behind a mask of humor. It's an old trick the cops I worked with taught me after a particularly bad accident in which a young man's chest had hit the steering wheel with such force it imploded his brain straight through the roof of his head. 
"It's the only way to cope with all we see," a police officer said, as he referred to the young man's brain as "fried eggs."
Tom and I tried to find something to laugh about, but perhaps we were just too tired. 
Only two more days of driving and we'd reach our final destination. We were both looking forward to it. 
Back at the hotel, Kate went swimming. I had a wine cooler and a discussion with a fellow who's not a veteran but understands trauma. 
"What's the worse thing you've ever had to deal with as a fireman?" I asked. 
"I try not to think about any of that," he said.
I've never been any good at that. Mention the white elephant in the room and that's all I can see, even if it's not really there. In spite of what he claimed, I don't think this firefighter is any good at avoiding the obvious either. 
"It's upsetting when the mother puts the baby dead from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome in your arms and begs and pleads with you to do something. So you take the baby, who is hard and cold, and you go through the motions trying to revive a child you know can't be revived. Somehow it makes the mother feel better that you tried." 
Sometimes the best any of us can do is try, even if we know beyond a doubt that our efforts are in vain. That's the real gift of humanity, the ability to press past the Red-Rover demons lined up against us across the playing field. Put your head down, run, and pray for a break in the line. If you are tossed on your butt, get up and make a go at it again. And again. And again. Whatever you do, don't be a quitter, cause quitters never win. 
The next morning, a fellow from  St. Simons, Georgia, gave me a lift on his Gold Wing. 
"The Hondobego," Tom said. 
"I've polished the gold trim so much it's starting to wear off," the driver said. "That's not gold-plating either. It's 24-karat gold." 
He likes to listen to opera as he rides. 
"You got 'Redneck Girl' or any Waylon Jennings tunes?" I asked. 
The ride into Rainelle, West Virginia, our stop for the day was short, less than 100 miles.  But like most mountain trails, there were a lot of switchbacks, up and around the hills. And the rain, which was still drizzling, made for a slick ride. I didn't worry, though. My driver had so many medals decorating his helmet; he was obviously an expert at maneuvers. I knew I was safe with him. 
Mountain folks lined the streets as we made our ascent up the hills of West Virginia. In the town of Glen Ferris, they sat on metal chairs on their front porch, and stood in the doorways of the motor garage and waved their flags and tipped their hats as we rode by. Sometimes, they ran inside to grab a baby or a buddy, pulling them outside to see us. Not much goes on in the hills of West Virginia. 
"Some of these kids have waited all year long to see Run for the Wall come to town," Mark Rittermeyer said. 
The streets of Rainelle were packed with people, standing three to four feet deep. A sea of red-white-and-blue flags, waved as us as we passed the elementary school. I couldn't imagine a visit from President Bush evoking more enthusiasm. We rode through town, circled around and back again, parking near the school.
Townfolks had prepared us a lunch in the school cafeteria. Sloppy Joes on hamburger buns. Chips. Soft Drinks. 
Kids had fashioned autograph books from pieces of 8 ½ by 11 inch paper, stapled together. 
"Would you sign my book?" 
I must've signed 50 of them. 
"What's your name?" I asked one girl, as I scooted down to eye-level. 
"Ashley," she said. 
"I have a daughter named Ashley. How old are you?" 
"Nine," she replied.
Over my shoulder, a veteran announced, "Did you know that when this lady here was 9 she lost her daddy to war?"
I winced. I knew the veteran meant well. It was his way of honoring my sacrifice. But I also knew that the little girl wouldn't know what to do with that much information. Kids shouldn't have to consider war, or its costs, at age 9. 
Later another girl said, "My papa was in the Army."
"Really?" I said. 
"Yeah," she replied. "That must be why he keeps all those guns around." 
"Must be," I said, laughing. 
I left the park before the Run for the Wall family made their annual donation to the school. An estimated $6,000 was given. I had to leave. Somebody had brought out the bamboo cage with the skinny and barely dressed man in it. It's symbolic of POWs, but I'm not the sort of person who needs the visualize reminder. I waited in the truck for Kate. 
She drove me to Lewisburg and we shared dinner with Target Ken and Little Big Mike and Paula and her family. Paula said she was sad. 
"This is our last night. I've been crying all day," she said.
Last year when Paula made the trip, her young son, who was back home in Austin, Texas, was in a bad bicycle wreck. He had to have surgery. Paula had to leave the pack and return home. Before she left, the Run for the Wall family took up a collection to help her with her plane flight home and expenses. They raised over $1,200 in a matter of minutes. This year, Paula gave us each an angel coin, along with a prayer of thanks. She's a good lady, that Paula. 
I didn't share her sadness, however. I was looking forward to getting to D.C. I love being with at the Wall, with my Wall family. Still, I knew I'd miss the Run for the Wall family and the adventures we'd shared. 
I couldn't imagine ever going All the Way again. 
The ride into D.C. was intense. There was somberness to the morning, the sort that comes to people on a mission. People busied themselves with preparing their gear, checking bags, cinching up gloves and helmets. There was very little chitchat. Dark skies threatened the ride. 
"Traffic will be bad out there. Be careful," Mark Rittermeyer urged.
Our only stop of the morning was lunch, at Woodstock, where the Southern Route team and others joined us. By the time we were all lined up, an estimated 800 motors lined the hillside. 
Too anxious to eat, I drank a Diet Coke and called the yellow-hatters who volunteer to work the Wall. 
"How bad is it out there?" I asked.
"Crowded with all this World War II stuff," Red Flegal said. "When are you getting in?"
"We're about 83 miles out," I said. "We'll be there by 3:30 p.m."
"I'll met you on the steps at the Lincoln Memorial," he said.
As we headed north, a car, driven by a young girl, attempted to merge into the pack. She took down three motors as she merged. They were behind us. Beside us a semi rolled along wheel-to-wheel. I envisioned what might happen if we dumped the bike next to that semi. There was that white elephant in the room again.
With the semi's tires humming alongside us, I tried hard not to think about the elephant. 
People in DC didn't line the streets. They barely nodded when we first arrived. It wasn't a bit like Kansas or Indiana. Only a smattering of folks took notice. Oh, well. DC folks have seen all this before. They probably get paraded to death. 
Red came out to meet me at the Lincoln Memorial, just like he promised. As did Terry McGregor. We passed out pins that the park volunteers gave us to many of the Run for the Wall people. We posed for pictures. We walked to the Wall. It was just as crowded as Red had said. I noticed that there was hardly any momentos at my father's panel. There hardly ever are.
Where are all these men's families? Where are their buddies who remember them?
I didn't make my first trip to the Wall until Veterans Day 2002. Who remembered Panel 9East prior to that? 
That night Terry and I hooked up with our other brothers and sisters at Froggy Bottom pizza joint. 
Tom Corey, Marsha Four, Mokie Porter, Jim Doyle, Cammie & Ray Olson, Kelly and John Rihn, Sondra Ray, Lil Abrams, Allan Cook, a slew of yellow-hatters all turned out. A mini-Vietnam reunion. A new daughter named Eileen showed up. JC wasn't there. She was busy across town, helping the kids of soldiers who've died in Iraq. I missed her.
The place was crowded. We needed more seating outside. I was appointed spokeswoman, which meant I got to ask a couple who were enjoying an outside table if they would mind moving indoors. 
I tried to be gracious. They tried to be gracious. It was awkward for the three of us. But they moved. Our group was enjoying the pizza and the beer and the chatter when later the couple stopped by my table and handed me a business card.
"If you need anything else while you're in D.C., give us a call," they said. 
Turning the card over, I read: James W. Metzger, vice admiral USN, and assistant to the chairman of the joint chief of staff.
"Oh, sh--!" I said.
Tom Corey laughed.
It's hard to tell mucky-mucks in civilian clothes. 
Terry and I got back to Pablo's motor home at 1:30 a.m. We had to be on the bikes, ready to roll at 6 a.m. I had hoped a ride with Mike from Illinois. Terry got a ride with Rayman from the Southern route. Kate was riding with Target Ken. 
We arrived at the Pentagon parking lot at 7 a.m. 
"Hurry up and wait," everyone said.
We hung out on a grassy knoll as the motors showed up. An estimated 200,000. The largest ever Rolling Thunder crowd.
"I'm ready to get home," said Lou, the fireman.
"Me, too," I said.
Danny, another firefighter, lay in the grass and told me all about his French mother who had survived World War II. He laughed at the story of my moving the admiral the night before. 
"Be sure to send him a copy of your book," Danny said.
Danny missed his calling. He's a born salesman. He ought to be in PR. 
Kate brought us more Scooby snacks. 
The roar of motors coming and going was constant. 
People curled up on blankets and napped by their motors. Some balanced themselves on the motors and snoozed. Tim tried to sleep on the hill, but he was too geared up. Lou slept. Kate and I gibber-jabbered. Time ticked away. 
"Would you do this again?" I asked Lou.
"Only with a support vehicle," he said. "My posture on the bike must be bad. As soon as I get on the bike, within 10 minutes my back starts hurting. It takes about an hour for me to adjust to the pain. Then I begin to absorb it." 
"Yeah, it's been nice to have the option to ride in a motor home, or truck and not be stuck on the bike. Especially in all that rain in Kentucky," I said.
The LA firefighters were headed out right after the parade down Constitution Avenue. 
I was sticking around for the Memorial Day ceremonies.
"I went down to see your father on the Wall yesterday," Lou said.
"You did?" I asked. "I saw Tim and Danny there." 
Tim owns a firefighter's edition motor. I introduced him and Danny to John Rihn, Kelly's husband, also a firefighter. I'd given Tim an angel pin and encouraged him to continue to try and get his brother, a Vietnam veteran, to share his stories. 
"Thanks for stopping by to see my dad, Lou," I said. "I appreciate it." 
When we'd left California 10 days earlier, Mark Rittermeyer, coordinator for Run for the Wall, said, "We are just a bunch of old soldiers on another mission."
That mission?
"To remember those who can't ride for themselves. The POWs. The MIAs. The KIAs."
Along the route, Pablo and I had worn Run for the Wall vests with patches that read: "In memory of David P. Spears, KIA, July 24, 1966."
With Pablo's permission, I left my Run for the Wall vest at the base of Panel 9E. 
I don't really need a vest or a trip across country to remember the father I lost to war. 
But I'm thankful to have been the FNG on the 2004 Run for the Wall team. It's good to have friends like Tim, Lou, Danny, Tom, Paula, Ken and Kate, and the slew of other Run for the Wall members who will forever recall that somewhere on Panel 9E is the name of a father who is remembered and missed by his daughter, Sister Goldenhair. 

     
 
 


 


 
 


 


 

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